Psalm 126:5-6 says, Those who plant in tears will harvest with shouts of joy. They weep as they go to plant their seed, but they sing as they return with the harvest.
The last 4 months have been some of the most difficult times I have ever faced spiritually and emotionally. I was a co-leader for LIFE this spring for the very first time and let me tell you, I had no idea God was going to take me through such a 'process'. I didn't realize it till about 3 weeks before LIFE was over with, but it was a 'process' of sanctification. It was a time of God molding and shaping my character into being who He created me to be. He taught me the importance of submission and most importantly, He taught me, or is still in the process of teaching me, how to live by faith, not by sight.
I'm a very visual person. I used to be a 0 to 60, fix it girl, if you want it - get it... until Jesus slowed me down and started teaching me how to take steps 1 through 59. During this time there were a LOT and I do mean a LOT of tears. Sometimes I knew why I was crying, but sometimes I didn't. It was hard. There were times I thought I'm not doing this anymore. I'm ready to throw in the towel. It was during those times when Papa God showed Himself so real and true to me. It was during those times where I could feel Him wrap His arms around me and love me despite of my short comings and my fear of the unknown.
Once we made it to LIFE Retreat everything suddenly made sense. God healed my heart and He brought me to a place of complete trust and faith in Him. No more doubting. No more second guessing. No more worrying. It's a place I've never been before. A place where He says, give me your whole heart... Trust me... And watch what I will do. One of my best friends texted me the verse in Psalm 126 yesterday. It brought tears to my eyes knowing that God is so faithful in His word. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that through the seeds of tears I sowed, He will bring me my joyful harvest.
His JOY is my strength!!!
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